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Administrator — Tue, 06 Oct 2009 03:54:22 +0000

First of all, I’ve gotta start this by telling you I met Kareem Abdul-Jabbar this past weekend. Awesome. He was very nice and super short. made me feel like a giant. Second, I feel so weird and ickster today. I’ve been trying to figure out why…and I think I have finally achieved that goal. You see, my family is in Chicago. And I’m in LA. And this is a very hard thing for me. I am absolutely RIDICULOUSLY close to my family. ridiculously. its wonderful. Everyone is on their own journey/path/whatever in life and that’s cool. That being said, everyone faces ups and downs and topsys and turveys. My major down is being away from my family. I love them so much. Today, it has all been heightened because my brother and his wife are at the hospital and they (well she) are about to give birth to the first baby in our family. And, of course, I don’t mean to bring this moment back to me (yes I do)…but I’m sad because I’m here. not there. i’m here. typing this blog. to you. Which, don’t get me wrong- I love you (really?)…and I am just so grateful that you are taking the time to read about my shenanigans….BUT, I’m not going to lie…I’m feeling sooo sad to not be there with them right now. Regardless, its all ok. this is the life I chose. I have chosen to follow my dream and marry my work. yes, I’m married. to my work. (we will talk about shaadi.com another day). I have committed myself wholeheartedly to being an actor for life. And if that means missing out on the most important occasions in life…real life…then…oh, who am I kidding- WHY AM I DOING THIS? I want to be at home with my family! BUT I know myself. I can’t leave the business. I can’t give up. Acting is my life. Acting is my everything. I have worked too hard for too long. For me, the work itself makes everything worth it. I am infatuated with the struggle. Everyday, all day, I work for this. For acting. Everything I do revolves around it. I live it, breathe it, smell it, taste it all of the time. Friend, if you are passionate about something- do it. do it wholeheartedly. You may have to give up something or a lot of things…and even if it feels impossible- that small possibility of it actually being possible makes everything worth it.

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